Every Friday night, either Nicole or I sit down to write our {weekend} lovelies piece.
Tonight is different.
It’s harder…
With the tragedy that unfolded early this morning in Connecticut,
it’s nearly impossible to think of anything but that.
I volunteer every Friday morning in both of my boy’s classrooms.
That is where I was when I learned of the horrific shooting that took so many innocent, sweet lives.
When I first heard the news,
chills ran through my body,
followed by the feeling of being sick to my stomach,
and then the uncontrollable feeling to fight back tears.
My initial instinct was that I needed to pull my boys out of school
and head home quickly where I knew we would all be together and safe
{grandma watched my littlest two today so I could volunteer, so they were already home}.
I fought that urge, knowing it was probably everyone’s reaction.
I knew they were okay, and that the best thing for them was to finish out the school day
{otherwise, there would be questions to answer and much to explain to the boys,
which I wasn’t sure I wanted to do… at least not yet}.
Now it is bedtime.
I hugged them a little tighter tonight and continued to fight the feeling to cry… and cry… and cry
{at least in front of them}
everytime I looked into their loving eyes.
I figured it best to first let you know that before I sit down to compose
a list of beautiful things out there in the world to share with you,
I should first address the utter heartbreak and despair that we are all feeling….
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If you are finding it difficult to talk to your children about the incident or don’t know how to start,
please refer {here &/or here} for more information.
Our thoughts, and more importantly… our prayers
are with the families affected by this immense tragedy, and with the community of Newtown.
May God bless…